Life on the blogosphere has been quiet – I apologize for that.
I don’t even have any proper excuse. Except that since I now live on my tablet, it makes typing a whole blog post hard. I’ve been tired, exhausted really. Still dealing with and letting go of 2012, such an intense year. I don’t really know what I need to do to fully let go of the past year but I guess I am doing it somehow.
Do you know how important it is to deal with the past year? Imagine this: you keep buying new things for your house, whether it be your personal longings such as clothes or some decorations you like to look at in your house or kitchen utilities. You keep accumulating these things. You do your weekly cleaning (which is a small part of cleaning) but you never really go through what you have in your house. You even forget what you have because it is somewhere in the bottom of the drawer. Your space keeps getting smaller and smaller and smaller. Soon you won’t have any room left as it has become so cluttered. You barely have any room for yourself to live! That is your mind. It’s cluttered because you haven’t cleaned it fully. You haven’t gone through the necessary things, nor been able to let go of those thoughts/manners that doesn’t serve you anymore. It is full with the past.
How can you have any room for anything new if it’s cluttered in the first place? At one point you run out of your space. When that point is reached, you know you need to do the necessary cleaning and decluttering. To prevent that from happening, you can start just cleaning one month, six months, 12 months and clean that first. If you haven’t dealt with, in other words cleaned, your past several years, all the way possibly to when you were born, it will be very hard to enjoy the present moment. As a result, you get glimpses of your past, reliving moments, thinking of the good and the bad times, how you could have done something differently, and so on. But you see, one should live in the present for it is a gift.
How you clean your space, is up to you. I suggest that you do it as soon as possible. It is a process and depending on how much you have to clean, it may be awhile till everything is fully solved. Some may even need some (professional) help to be able to go through it all. Once everything is resolved fully, you can start living in the present and actually enjoying every single moment, thinking it is a gift.
Personally, I am still in the process. I have dealt with most of last year, I think. However, I haven’t dealt with all the other years all the way to my childhood. While I have been very lucky as a child to be born to a good household, there are still some internal issues that affect my everyday life. It is only now that I realize, I actually might need professional help myself. I am not ashamed of this for I know it is part of my path. Things need to be dealt with. I can’t do it on my own. I, myself, am asking for help. It feels extremely good to ask for help actually. If I can do it, you can do it too. I encourage you to listen deep within what it is you need to resolve the past, and do not be afraid to do it.